Despite having the memory span of a retarded goldfish, I
do remember where my life was when I started this blog- just graduated high
school, bored as hell, waiting impatiently to ship to Basic, trying not to
think about the hell I was going to voluntarily put myself through because I
saw no other direction for my life, distracting myself from the emptiness of my
life any way I could, short of actually doing something productive because I
had some strange phobia towards actually applying myself. Wow but do I paint a
sad, pathetic person… but that’s alright, it is accurate, I was a sad and
pathetic person XD. So I spent a few months trying to find something to say,
because there was a ton of shit drifting just below the conscious level of my
brain that I wanted to sort out but I had no idea how, and failing miserably
(sorry, imaginaries, the archives really do suck), reading up on all sorts of
things (link hopping hua!)
Then I FINALLY ship to Basic, do a lot of adapting and
learning which I needed. You know how they say boot camp will break you down
then build you back up? False, at least in my case- Basic broke me down than
Keesler built me back up. Tech school hua! It’s insane, I don’t even recognize
myself now- I actually have self-esteem, self-confidence, I can actually dive
into the depths of my brain and excavate what’s in there and analyze it (yes,
you learn to do that in Basic… it’s not something they teach, but you spend a
lot of time inside your head with nothing but you, yourself, and some mundane
task you’ve done five zillion times before for company, so you learn
introspection)… All and all, I actually rather like myself now. Thank you Air
Force! And, you know, I get a free education (just by going through technical
training, I’ll almost get an associate’s degree- I just need the general
courses when I get out of here for that), more free education (GI Bill, to use
whenever I actually figure out what sort of degree I’d like to use for the rest
of my life), food, housing, pay… So basically I have it made right now.
Recruiters, have a bit of free advertising, since if any of you imaginaries
aren’t busy with something else, I would recommend joining the United State’s
Air Force ^.^
So yes, this post basically turned into an announcement
of “World, I’m awesome”… Who would have thought I’d be writing a post like this
a year ago, huh? Don’t worry, I’m not completely egotistical- I’m willing to
admit that I’m an absolute retard, but apparently I’m entertaining enough (and
book smart, to boot) that I’m lucky enough not to be getting into too much
trouble over it. Yes, I am a lucky bastard and you have every right to hate me
:P
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